Sunday, June 28, 2009

Poor driving skills

From this second onwads, I won't touch a fucking car's stearing anymore.

Do not ask me to drive you to anywhere.

Even if u dont die from heart attack, u will die from car accident. A tragic one.

I've warned you.

Enough said.

Im so sorry motorcycle uncle, thank god u're alive.

Im going to lock my blog, i need some alone space.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

Capsules and wrinkles

Hmm.....it's already the 7th day of medication. I am actually practising how to swallow capsules properly as I'm very scared of that apart from that lar. Those who have done my facebook quiz should know this. Well, 3 more days to practise.

Everyday, when the clock strikes 11am. i will be like 'owwwwhhhh time to eat medicine already.' I will take a BIG glass of water and that box of medicine downstairs and switch on the tv. Then, i put the capsule into my mouth, drink LOTS of water, and i will play with the capsule abit, only swallow lor.... First few days were suffering lor. Don't dare to swallow. But i have no choice lar, must take the medicine.

So there was one day, i couldn't swallow the capsule after a long time. I bite it. And guess what? the contents of the capsule came out of course. It was sooooooooooooo bitter, i spit it out. Haha. I skipped one day of medication. But who cares, i'm not sick. Nyaha..dun tell mummy.

Was combing my hair today, and staring into the mirror, because im vain. *want me to add 'very'?* ok fine im very vain. So i was thinking, when im old, i will sure get wrinkles, especially at my eye region.. U know when u smile, ur eyes will show wrinkles??? Argh i dunno how to say lar.

We get wrinkles because we streach our muscles too much. Correct me if i'm wrong. When we smile or frown, we strech our muscles.

To prevent getting wrinkles too fast? Why not we stay numb forever. Numb as in =_=...... That way, we won't stretch our muscles so often. So we can stay away from wrinkles faster???
HAHA I DUNNO.

So next time when someone asks u why are u emo. Usually emo faces are =_=. U can reply 'i don't wanna get wrinkles faster than u!' and continue being =_=......and =_=...and =_=........=_=

wakakaka...no need to go for botox already. Save money. Just by doing the =_= look. I shall name this the shu ying look =_=.

Purpose of life

'We're discussing no small matter, but how we ought to live.'

- Socrates

But what is the purpose of life actually?

'To waste time.'

-Mr Munintaran Sundram

I have to agree this.

Hah!

Monday, June 22, 2009

Boredom

I'm so bored that i feel so emo.

Entertain me pls.

Especially YOU!

Sunday, June 21, 2009

sorry

No words can describe how i feel now.

I don't know wad to feel or how to deal with it.

Sorry is not the way to solve a problem.

What's done cannot be undone.

That's how things work.

A secret to u means confidential.

But ur secret to someone else may not have the same meaning.

U can never count on anybody.

U can bever tust anybody in this world.

It's best to be alone.

Friday, June 19, 2009

Awesome technology


As im home quarantined, i cant make it to the gathering :(
FEAR NOT. WE HAVE WEBCAMS.
YEAY!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Home quarantine

Yes, im not joking. My whole family is home quarantined, including my maid.

Went to college as usual, forgot to do my hwk on energy changes. So busy copying answer lor.

Mum sent me a text message, asking me to call her immediately. I asked permission to make that emergency phone call.

Mum told me dad is test positive with H1N1 flu, and i need to go home after college today. I teared abit, but then wiped off as i do not want everybody to see me crying.

Feeling worried, i couldn't concentrate in class. So many things running in my mind. Olympiad, driving test, daddy, practical write up, ESL presentation. I have to postpone everything of course. But i'm most concerned bout my written practical test.

During free period, rushed to orange room and told Pn Mahani about this. She asked me not to worry about the written practical test, and also asked me to go home. Besides, she asked me to be strong and hope for the best. That time, i was holding my tears back. Can't believe this is happening to my dad.

Then, went to the programme director's office to report about this matter. They ask me to go home immediately as i need to be quarantined. I understand, i might carry the virus and it's not good to infect other ppl. As a result, i have to miss several classes.

Bought lunch and everything and went home. Waited and waited for the health officers to come. They never showed up! We had no choice but to continue wait obviously.

Programme director called my mum, saying that the lecturers will help out with what i missed, asking us to treat this like an extended holiday. I'm so touched by her kindness.

So, we waited until about 11.30pm, then only the health officers show up. They gave us medication, took our temperature, gave us the masks and everything.

Have to eat medicine for 10 days, record down temperature everyday, stay away from each other. Like prison lar omg.

My dad's case is the 22nd H1N1 case in msia. u can read it here.

Treasure ur loved ones, don't take them for granted. Get well soon, dad.

Monday, June 15, 2009

Holding on

i'm trying to stay strong. I must do this. I can do this. I must do this.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Uber angry

Everyday, about 8-9 in the morning, i'll receive some nonsense message from some stupid service. The number is 36181.

Let me give u an example of the message they send:
'A crocodile always grows new teeth to replace the old teeth. Amazing eh?'

What kinda nonsense is this.

And guess what? 1 message costs RM3.00. I didn't know it's eating up my credit, and i always wonder why my credit finishes so fast eventhough i don't call or sms anyone EXCESSIVELY.

Like fuck, i realised it today when i checked my credit (because i reloaded yesterday). My account should be full. MANA TAU, 3 bucks gone.

With 3 bucks, i can send 300 messages to a maxis number.

Feeling panic, i didn't know what to do. I cannot imagine how much i've rugi-ed for dunno how long. RM3 a day...I thought it's just some nonsense so i delete the stupid message on a daily basis. Mana tau it's eating up my money. I decided to change my number.

But i also dun feel like changing my number, because it's super mafan to tell the whole world that u've changed ur number. So i called that stupid 36181. Couldn't get through of course.

I sent messages like 'stop sending me nonsense'. They sent me a message telling me how to cancel the service. SINCE WHEN DID I SUBSCRIBE TO SUCH NONSENSE?

so i just stopped the service lar. Haih, better realise now than never.

Friday, June 12, 2009

Sick

I feel so sick, coughing the whole day. My abdomen feels so painful. As if i've just worked out, as if i have done 100 sit-ups.

Very pain lar...

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

Some emails that i'm too lazy to foward

Email 1:

For all the girls that use public toilet, or use the changing room when u shop, pls be aware of this if u dun want ur nude self to be recorded or photographed.

Check with your handphone, make sure that your handphone can still make a call before you enter a restroom/changing room.

And after entering into that particular toilet, if your phone cannot make a call out (this is due to the interference of fibre optic during implementation), it means that there could be a HIDDEN CAMERA inside, so be very cautious ladies!!

PLS ALSO PASS THIS MAIL TO YOUR MOTHER, SISTER ,GIRL FRIENDS FOR ALL MALE !!!!

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Email 2:

Dear Friends,

Not sure how true is the information reported as below, but, just for your awareness, ok?

GIRLS BEWARE -- INDONESIAN DEVILS ARE IN KELANA JAYA, KEPONG, DAMANSARA, BANGSAR, PUCHONG, CHERAS, SERDANG, SUBANG JAYA, SHAHALAM, OUG, SEAPARK, ......


Indonesian gangs rapes any females - BEWARE !!! These creatures that look like human called Indonesians are now raping 8 years old girl....!!! Please set up an alarm system in your house...!!! The money is not worth saving....!! ! It will be too late for all you know. These Indonesians would rape any females ranging from 1 year old to as old as 90 years old.

PLEASE FORWARD THIS TO AS MANY PEOPLE AS POSSIBLE. KUALA LUMPUR : Police have mounted an inter-state manhunt for a notorious gang which robbed a couple before raping their eight-year-old daughter in their Kepong home on Monday.

They believe the same gang is also behind Tuesday's incident where a 31-year-old housewife was gang raped by five men in front of her husband at a house in Kelana Jaya after relieving them off RM30,000 in cash and valuables. In the first incident on Monday, three knife-wielding men broke into house in Bukit Maluri, Kepong, at 2.30am and held up the family.

The robbers, who entered from the back door, then threatened the couple and their three children before tying them and ransacking the house. Several minutes later, two of the robbers took the couple's eldest daughter to a room and allegedly raped her.. The gang then fled after 40 minutes with about RM5,000 in cash and valuables. City police chief Deputy Comm Datuk Meor Chek Hussin Mahayuddin said police had also beefed-up patrols in the area. They are liaising with their counterparts in Negri Sembilan where the gang is believed to be also operating. MUST READ THIS STATEMENT subject: Malaysiais finally number 2 in something! Don't work too late (MALAYSIABOLEH! )

Not to scare anyone.. But, it is good to be watchful rather than feel sorry later.!!! Malaysiais finally number 2 in something! Don't work too late, It's always good to be very careful.! Don't work too late, ladies, please take care and you men please tell your wife to make sure that they are not alone when they stay back to work.

Here is the true story. There is a girl was raped and murdered. She went back to work on a public holiday with another girl, the boyfriend even packed lunch for them and later when the girls wanted to go home, the car couldn't start and the other girl's boyfriend who came to pick her up didn't wait because the girl told them to go off first and there was a security guard helping her. She didn't come home that night and they found her body in a burnt car abandoned in a rubber estate in Dengkil on the 3rd day.

The guard reported to work and acted normal during the police investigation but when the police questioned him again, he remembered the color of her clothes in detail and they noticed that the hair on his hands were seared although there was no burnt marks. He finally admitted that he is the one that killing her. There was no cover up but the case was not publish in the newspapers.

Don't ever trust the security guards. Be sure to keep the office door lock. Hey girls, be forewarned and please be doubly, even triply cautious whenever there is a need to stay back late at work. If at all possible, leave the plant/company early when there are still people around. Better yet, if there is still work that must absolutely be completed by that day, bring it home! Just heard about a rape case at a MNC(multinational company) which just happened sometimes back last year. The victim is married with kids, she worked till 11.00 pm. Security guard raped her in the toilet. She managed to escape and drove herself to the hospital.

Next day, the other employees was shocked to see the condition of the toilet.. Blood and her hair everywhere, and all the brooms and mops were broken. The police later came and arrested the security guard, who still reported for work the next day. However, they manage to cover it up, not even come up in the newspaper or any media. I can't imagine how such cases have been covered up in Malaysia .. It's because they are MNC. (This is a sad reality)

Please girls, don't put your life in danger by working late or being negligent. You can never be too careful nowadays. Malaysia ranks number 2 in crime against woman. Please send this to all your female friends

My extra advice: Guys, please tell your mom, your sister, your wife, your girlfriends and all your female friends around you too!

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Email 3:

Dear Friends, I would like to share a life saving incident that all ourloved ones needs to be aware. Last Saturday, 11th April 2009, my girlfriend andI were in Mid Valley “The Gardens” for a movie. We finished around8.40pm. I had parked my car just right above the ‘GSC SignatureCinema’ on the 5th floor.. As we were getting into our car, we realized thatthe parking fee had not been paid. We decided to stop by the Auto paystation on the lower parking level to do the payment.

We drove 2 floors down and couldn’t locate theAuto Pay Station. We decided to park our car at 2nd floor wondering if thereshould be a pay station in the mall at the lobby area. My girlfrienddecided to wait in the car as she was on the phone. was walking into themall looking for an Auto Pay Station, failing to find one, I decided towalk 1 floor down.

About minutes time, my girlfriend called me on my mobilephone and she sounded terrified . She was shouting for help. She toldme that there is a guy who is trying to get into the car. The guy wastrying to get into the car very calmly, pretending getting into his own car.He failed to open and refuses to continue trying as he noticed thatshe was on the phone calling for help. Luckily, she had locked the doorjust right after I got out earlier. I run up as quickly as possible toreach her.

The moment I reached to the parking area, I saw the guywalking away slowly from the car. He was walking towards the rampheading to the upper level. As I ran up the ramp, though I could still see himI realized that I was running away from my car again. It could beteamwork just to divert my presence from my car.

I got back to my girlfriendquickly to calm her down. We made an official report to the Mid Valley securitymanagement to investigate on the CCTV. It was a lesson learned for usto be more careful in the parking zones. I’m happy that mygirlfriend is still here with me today. Please be watchful in parking zones.

Tips that we should be aware: Never leave valuable items or your family members alonein the car at parking location.

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All these incidents are happening around us. Be sure to be extra careful whenever u go, even at home. The world aint perfect.

Take care, everybody.

Rape on the Airlines

Read this email sent by wai san. I was thinking, what is WRONG with these ppl? Where are their conscience man?

The story goes like this (from the email).
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Actually there are a lot of Saudi rape and abuse cases reported in newspapers. Their govt will protect their own citizens and usually turn a blind eye towards the victims (foreigners) or even jail them for supposedly making false accusations. So, stay the same.

The most horrific incident has recently occurred on a Emirates Airlines and the culprits have gotten away with it. The worst thing about this case is that this is the 4th case to have happened on this airline.

During the Christmas of 2005, Emirates Airline made it's regular flight from Dubai to Manila . However, 4 hours into the flight, most passengers were sleeping or dozing off. A man approached a lady who was alone and asked her to assist his child in the bathroom. Not thinking much the lady followed the gentleman to the rear of the plane.

Immediately she was grabbed by the man's 3 accomplices who immediately gagged and taped her mouth and then went on to rape her in the back area of the craft while 2 kept watch, 2 others molested and raped her.


After they had all had a turn, they forced her to drink a drug laced drink and escorted her to her seat. She had knocked off until she arrived in manila by which time the 4 men had disembarked and gotten away.

This is a repeat case of the same thing that happened on a flight from Dubai to Mumbai on a Emirates airline.

The Emirates staff are aware of this but when the staff have some suspicion of some incident taking place they make it a point to avoid going to the back of the plane. This is the 4th case to take place on Emirates airline.

However the worst case of a rape victim on a emirates flight was when a flight from Bangkok to Dubai . The lady was not only raped on flight but she was taken thru immigration into Dubai and raped for several days and then later on sold to the underground.

Please pass this on to all females who travel alone.
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Seriously, What is wrong with them? Cant they like, buy a sex toy? or look for a prostitute? Afterall prostitutes are hot and slutty. Are sex toys expensive? Buy the cheapest one then! OR WATCH PORN. Can download for free wad. Stupid cheap skates.

If u dirty rapists cant't resist ur stupid temptation, why not chop off ur cocks? So u wont get an erection or anything. Don't treat us women like sex toys man. WE ARE LIVING THINGS THAT HAVE DIGNITY AND DESERVES TO BE LOVED.

We women do not like to be raped. Get ur filthy cocks and disgusting hands out of the way!

OMG, i cant do anything but feel pity for these women. KELIAN BETUL! Not only kena rape, but drugged. ish...

What is wrong with this world?

God is gonna wipe off the world again. U know? Noah's Ark? But this time with fire, or maybe swine flu? If i'm not mistaken lar...my church said so.

Pls, dirty men, have some conscience pls. If not, pls rot in hell.

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Presentation

im practising my speech, speaking over and over again. My music is so loud, so that the whole world won't hear me talk like a mad woman.

GOSH, speaking fast and pronouncing accurately is VERY HARD...especially when ur time frame is only 3 minutes.

Hmm.......

Monday, June 8, 2009

Life is a bed of roses

It's the first day of college, after a loooooooooong 2 week break. Not easy to get out from the bed, because i wake up at 12 everyday during the holidays. So........yeah.

Went to college, a bit later, as my bro is having holidays. That means lick hung and sri kl wont jam the way. Wee...traffic was really really smooth.

First day of college is ..................weird. Many ppl with new hairstyles, but still...weird feeling to go back. As expected, got back all our results. Yes, every subject.

I won't say i did very good or bad. It's average. But i'm a little bit disappointed lar. You know me lar i expect a lot lar. I estimated that i will get at least A17 or A18 for every subject. :'( no more A19 already....sob..To those G3s that read my blog, dun curse me :P:P:P:P

Self reflect: dont be overconfident and careless. Always stay focus. Don't sleep late. AND DRINK BRANDS' CHICKEN ESSENCE EVERYDAY!!!! during exam lar of course. I didn't drink on bio exam day, that;s why my bio paper sucks. Hahahahaha...ok enough crap.

After college, went to the EPF place, near chs. to apply for EPF duh...i dunno why, ask my dad. ok bla bla bla...wasted a lot of time there...so slow...bla bla bla....So i chit chat with my mum.

I asked her, why didnt i receive any letter from NS. Both letter of deferment and also letter asking me to go for ns. I'm in the third batch. The second batch has already returned and it's the third batch's turn to go next week. I can't even find my name in the newspaper. Neh, the list of ns ppl. So i assume that my deferment was successful.

But till this point i still dun have my offer letter and also deferment letter?????!!!! not that i want to go for ns lar. ish. I'm suspecting that i actually NEVER kena ns before. Besides, my friends ju sian and huei wenn also said that the sms thing wasnt accurate.

So, my mum called the ns ppl again. They said my name is not in the system. Haha yeah...NOT IN THE SYSTEM. Feeling suprised, i checked the website AGAIN. Yes the nth time. Typed my ic number. It turned out saying that im not chosen for ns.

Yes. No. KP anda tidak terdapat dalam senarai yang terpilih.

We checked every single folder,still couldnt find my name. So what does this mean? im forgotten? if yes. YEAY...i can see my mum grinning HAHA. she's happier than i am!

Months ago, my mum keeps calling them to check my status, whether i successfully defered or not. They keep saying that they're processing the letter, or the mail is on its way...all kinds of nonsense. and now. THEY SAY IM NOT IN THE LIST...WOOHOOooooooooooooOOOOOOOO

But i hope they dun put back my name inside lar..when they see my defer letter. I doubt that they read my letter. Anyway. YEAY.

It's the first day of college. Ok lar. first day of semester 2. And i have presentation tmr or wed. and practical test 2 on titration next week..................hello hectic life!

Friday, June 5, 2009

lost

what is wrong with me?

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Imagine ur future with TTC

Went there early in the morning to do wad? to print those bloody thick notes and bind them comb binding mind u, damn thick ok. So u can imagine how much time and effort i've put into it. One week one book ok beat that! I've put my assignments aside to do their stupid bloody notes.
U SHOULD BE VERY THANKFUL THAT IM SO RESPONSIBLE DAMN U STUDENTS!

In the end how many students turned up? only 3 students.
Reason: Camp, holiday, exam over bla bla lba etc all sorts of nonsense.
Ei fuck u? cannot tell tuition teacher izzit. u think im robot ah..do ur notes everytime.

ARGH...I HATE THE WORD 'NOTES' NOW.

Why is the system so damn screwed up????? Haih, too much to say and i dunno how to put it in words.

wow...let me calculate. I taught 3 hours today. = 30 bucks.
3 students,1 buck each (i know rite? damn fucking kiamsiap) = 3 bucks
So means wad? i only earned 33 bucks? and my lunch is about...10+???? that means 23 bucks? wow...thatz A LOT...
and how much time i spent on preparing and u only pay me for teaching? How many nights i sacrifice my sleep time and my shopping time with mum TO DO UR FUCKING NOTES?!
imagine going through this every week.

Do notes, print, bind. Do notes, print, bind. Do notes, print, bind. In between process, need to find suitable diagrams, workbook questions. prepare their hwk. FYI, their notes has to be very colourful. so they will read, thatz wad ttc said lar. so u have to EDIT the notes also..make it very colourful and lively. like kindergarden hor?

During lesson, i tried to make the lesson interesting. As a matter of fact, bio is a very dry subject. Yeah..they laughed..enjoyed themselves.

I even get compliments, saying that im a good teacher. That really cheers me up.

But there are some students who SLEEP in my class. ok those ppl fuck off..dun wanna see ur fugly face...HOWEVER...THESE SLEEPING BEAUTIES WANT EXTRA CLASSES!!!
DO THE STUDENTS APPRECIATE IT? NO...THEY DONT FUCKING STUDY. THEY KEEP WANTING MORE LESSONS, MORE EXTRA CLASSES...

LIKE HELLO? izzit my problem that u miss ur tuition or sleep during class??? cannot read urself ah. FYI, a student called me...yes my cellphone dunno how he got my number. to meet him in mcd (old town that one)...to teach him wad he has missed because he attended his school activities. wow...if every student is like this...then i no time to shit already? HELLO WAD AM I??? FREELANCE TUITION TEACHER AH... I NO NEED TO STUDY IZZIT?!?!?! I'VE SAID NO MILLION TIMES.

Mind u im teaching bio ok..not physics or chem or add maths or accounts...so confirm less ppl come tuition lar coz u can read bio at home, no need guidance also can (like me when i was in high school).
So confirmed, i wont earn much. kind of regret choosing to teach bio also. Should stand strong saying that i wanna teach other subjects.

I am a perfectionist. i dont deny that. Ppl in chsb, especially f508 know this very well. I cannot runaway from stressing up myself lar...hmmm have to change have to change. My notes, to be honest, is very complete for everything. (EVEN BRUCE THE ALMIGHTY SAID SO). So thatz a lot of effort. I realised im so stupid for doing a good job.

Ok...so u're wondering why i wanna teach ttc. well, i'd say i dunno why too. I wanted to prove to my parents that im not some rich stuck up kid that eats their money. Well, i failed to prove. I AM A RICH ASS KID WHO DOESNT KNOW HOW TO EARN MONEY BUT ASK FOR MONEY ALL THE TIME.

my parents have been telling me to quit...to quit...to quit...but i stayed on FOR NO REASON. OK for my senior's sake maybe, i do pity him..hez a medical student, if i leave that means he has to take over my job and his job as well. sure no time to study. but this time it is unbearable anymore.

I know..if i want to leave, i have to stand firm. But i just couldn't do it. GOSH FUCK WHY IS MY HEART SO SOFT?! haih...

But today, told my senior that i want to stop teaching. TO MY HORROR...HE CALLED ME...OMG...i told him i wasnt feeling well and said bye bye.

WHY SO DESPERATE...NOBODY TO TEACH MEH??? im not that good also.

This post is so long and unorganised. There is just too much, i cannot finish writing. Im very sleepy now...this cough syrup is really strong...gosh...

Imagine ur future with ttc. Yeah...i see no rainbow, but a dark dark cave.

Monday, June 1, 2009

i feel like shit. cant eat, cant sleep, cant speak, cant walk, cant do anything.

fuck it