im practising my speech, speaking over and over again. My music is so loud, so that the whole world won't hear me talk like a mad woman.
GOSH, speaking fast and pronouncing accurately is VERY HARD...especially when ur time frame is only 3 minutes.
Hmm.......
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
Monday, June 8, 2009
Life is a bed of roses
It's the first day of college, after a loooooooooong 2 week break. Not easy to get out from the bed, because i wake up at 12 everyday during the holidays. So........yeah.
Went to college, a bit later, as my bro is having holidays. That means lick hung and sri kl wont jam the way. Wee...traffic was really really smooth.
First day of college is ..................weird. Many ppl with new hairstyles, but still...weird feeling to go back. As expected, got back all our results. Yes, every subject.
I won't say i did very good or bad. It's average. But i'm a little bit disappointed lar. You know me lar i expect a lot lar. I estimated that i will get at least A17 or A18 for every subject. :'( no more A19 already....sob..To those G3s that read my blog, dun curse me :P:P:P:P
Self reflect: dont be overconfident and careless. Always stay focus. Don't sleep late. AND DRINK BRANDS' CHICKEN ESSENCE EVERYDAY!!!! during exam lar of course. I didn't drink on bio exam day, that;s why my bio paper sucks. Hahahahaha...ok enough crap.
After college, went to the EPF place, near chs. to apply for EPF duh...i dunno why, ask my dad. ok bla bla bla...wasted a lot of time there...so slow...bla bla bla....So i chit chat with my mum.
I asked her, why didnt i receive any letter from NS. Both letter of deferment and also letter asking me to go for ns. I'm in the third batch. The second batch has already returned and it's the third batch's turn to go next week. I can't even find my name in the newspaper. Neh, the list of ns ppl. So i assume that my deferment was successful.
But till this point i still dun have my offer letter and also deferment letter?????!!!! not that i want to go for ns lar. ish. I'm suspecting that i actually NEVER kena ns before. Besides, my friends ju sian and huei wenn also said that the sms thing wasnt accurate.
So, my mum called the ns ppl again. They said my name is not in the system. Haha yeah...NOT IN THE SYSTEM. Feeling suprised, i checked the website AGAIN. Yes the nth time. Typed my ic number. It turned out saying that im not chosen for ns.
Yes. No. KP anda tidak terdapat dalam senarai yang terpilih.
We checked every single folder,still couldnt find my name. So what does this mean? im forgotten? if yes. YEAY...i can see my mum grinning HAHA. she's happier than i am!
Months ago, my mum keeps calling them to check my status, whether i successfully defered or not. They keep saying that they're processing the letter, or the mail is on its way...all kinds of nonsense. and now. THEY SAY IM NOT IN THE LIST...WOOHOOooooooooooooOOOOOOOO
But i hope they dun put back my name inside lar..when they see my defer letter. I doubt that they read my letter. Anyway. YEAY.
It's the first day of college. Ok lar. first day of semester 2. And i have presentation tmr or wed. and practical test 2 on titration next week..................hello hectic life!
Went to college, a bit later, as my bro is having holidays. That means lick hung and sri kl wont jam the way. Wee...traffic was really really smooth.
First day of college is ..................weird. Many ppl with new hairstyles, but still...weird feeling to go back. As expected, got back all our results. Yes, every subject.
I won't say i did very good or bad. It's average. But i'm a little bit disappointed lar. You know me lar i expect a lot lar. I estimated that i will get at least A17 or A18 for every subject. :'( no more A19 already....sob..To those G3s that read my blog, dun curse me :P:P:P:P
Self reflect: dont be overconfident and careless. Always stay focus. Don't sleep late. AND DRINK BRANDS' CHICKEN ESSENCE EVERYDAY!!!! during exam lar of course. I didn't drink on bio exam day, that;s why my bio paper sucks. Hahahahaha...ok enough crap.
After college, went to the EPF place, near chs. to apply for EPF duh...i dunno why, ask my dad. ok bla bla bla...wasted a lot of time there...so slow...bla bla bla....So i chit chat with my mum.
I asked her, why didnt i receive any letter from NS. Both letter of deferment and also letter asking me to go for ns. I'm in the third batch. The second batch has already returned and it's the third batch's turn to go next week. I can't even find my name in the newspaper. Neh, the list of ns ppl. So i assume that my deferment was successful.
But till this point i still dun have my offer letter and also deferment letter?????!!!! not that i want to go for ns lar. ish. I'm suspecting that i actually NEVER kena ns before. Besides, my friends ju sian and huei wenn also said that the sms thing wasnt accurate.
So, my mum called the ns ppl again. They said my name is not in the system. Haha yeah...NOT IN THE SYSTEM. Feeling suprised, i checked the website AGAIN. Yes the nth time. Typed my ic number. It turned out saying that im not chosen for ns.
Yes. No. KP anda tidak terdapat dalam senarai yang terpilih.
We checked every single folder,still couldnt find my name. So what does this mean? im forgotten? if yes. YEAY...i can see my mum grinning HAHA. she's happier than i am!
Months ago, my mum keeps calling them to check my status, whether i successfully defered or not. They keep saying that they're processing the letter, or the mail is on its way...all kinds of nonsense. and now. THEY SAY IM NOT IN THE LIST...WOOHOOooooooooooooOOOOOOOO
But i hope they dun put back my name inside lar..when they see my defer letter. I doubt that they read my letter. Anyway. YEAY.
It's the first day of college. Ok lar. first day of semester 2. And i have presentation tmr or wed. and practical test 2 on titration next week..................hello hectic life!
Friday, June 5, 2009
Wednesday, June 3, 2009
Imagine ur future with TTC
Went there early in the morning to do wad? to print those bloody thick notes and bind them comb binding mind u, damn thick ok. So u can imagine how much time and effort i've put into it. One week one book ok beat that! I've put my assignments aside to do their stupid bloody notes.
U SHOULD BE VERY THANKFUL THAT IM SO RESPONSIBLE DAMN U STUDENTS!
In the end how many students turned up? only 3 students.
Reason: Camp, holiday, exam over bla bla lba etc all sorts of nonsense.
Ei fuck u? cannot tell tuition teacher izzit. u think im robot ah..do ur notes everytime.
ARGH...I HATE THE WORD 'NOTES' NOW.
Why is the system so damn screwed up????? Haih, too much to say and i dunno how to put it in words.
wow...let me calculate. I taught 3 hours today. = 30 bucks.
3 students,1 buck each (i know rite? damn fucking kiamsiap) = 3 bucks
So means wad? i only earned 33 bucks? and my lunch is about...10+???? that means 23 bucks? wow...thatz A LOT...
and how much time i spent on preparing and u only pay me for teaching? How many nights i sacrifice my sleep time and my shopping time with mum TO DO UR FUCKING NOTES?!
imagine going through this every week.
Do notes, print, bind. Do notes, print, bind. Do notes, print, bind. In between process, need to find suitable diagrams, workbook questions. prepare their hwk. FYI, their notes has to be very colourful. so they will read, thatz wad ttc said lar. so u have to EDIT the notes also..make it very colourful and lively. like kindergarden hor?
During lesson, i tried to make the lesson interesting. As a matter of fact, bio is a very dry subject. Yeah..they laughed..enjoyed themselves.
I even get compliments, saying that im a good teacher. That really cheers me up.
But there are some students who SLEEP in my class. ok those ppl fuck off..dun wanna see ur fugly face...HOWEVER...THESE SLEEPING BEAUTIES WANT EXTRA CLASSES!!!
DO THE STUDENTS APPRECIATE IT? NO...THEY DONT FUCKING STUDY. THEY KEEP WANTING MORE LESSONS, MORE EXTRA CLASSES...
LIKE HELLO? izzit my problem that u miss ur tuition or sleep during class??? cannot read urself ah. FYI, a student called me...yes my cellphone dunno how he got my number. to meet him in mcd (old town that one)...to teach him wad he has missed because he attended his school activities. wow...if every student is like this...then i no time to shit already? HELLO WAD AM I??? FREELANCE TUITION TEACHER AH... I NO NEED TO STUDY IZZIT?!?!?! I'VE SAID NO MILLION TIMES.
Mind u im teaching bio ok..not physics or chem or add maths or accounts...so confirm less ppl come tuition lar coz u can read bio at home, no need guidance also can (like me when i was in high school).
So confirmed, i wont earn much. kind of regret choosing to teach bio also. Should stand strong saying that i wanna teach other subjects.
I am a perfectionist. i dont deny that. Ppl in chsb, especially f508 know this very well. I cannot runaway from stressing up myself lar...hmmm have to change have to change. My notes, to be honest, is very complete for everything. (EVEN BRUCE THE ALMIGHTY SAID SO). So thatz a lot of effort. I realised im so stupid for doing a good job.
Ok...so u're wondering why i wanna teach ttc. well, i'd say i dunno why too. I wanted to prove to my parents that im not some rich stuck up kid that eats their money. Well, i failed to prove. I AM A RICH ASS KID WHO DOESNT KNOW HOW TO EARN MONEY BUT ASK FOR MONEY ALL THE TIME.
my parents have been telling me to quit...to quit...to quit...but i stayed on FOR NO REASON. OK for my senior's sake maybe, i do pity him..hez a medical student, if i leave that means he has to take over my job and his job as well. sure no time to study. but this time it is unbearable anymore.
I know..if i want to leave, i have to stand firm. But i just couldn't do it. GOSH FUCK WHY IS MY HEART SO SOFT?! haih...
But today, told my senior that i want to stop teaching. TO MY HORROR...HE CALLED ME...OMG...i told him i wasnt feeling well and said bye bye.
WHY SO DESPERATE...NOBODY TO TEACH MEH??? im not that good also.
This post is so long and unorganised. There is just too much, i cannot finish writing. Im very sleepy now...this cough syrup is really strong...gosh...
Imagine ur future with ttc. Yeah...i see no rainbow, but a dark dark cave.
U SHOULD BE VERY THANKFUL THAT IM SO RESPONSIBLE DAMN U STUDENTS!
In the end how many students turned up? only 3 students.
Reason: Camp, holiday, exam over bla bla lba etc all sorts of nonsense.
Ei fuck u? cannot tell tuition teacher izzit. u think im robot ah..do ur notes everytime.
ARGH...I HATE THE WORD 'NOTES' NOW.
Why is the system so damn screwed up????? Haih, too much to say and i dunno how to put it in words.
wow...let me calculate. I taught 3 hours today. = 30 bucks.
3 students,1 buck each (i know rite? damn fucking kiamsiap) = 3 bucks
So means wad? i only earned 33 bucks? and my lunch is about...10+???? that means 23 bucks? wow...thatz A LOT...
and how much time i spent on preparing and u only pay me for teaching? How many nights i sacrifice my sleep time and my shopping time with mum TO DO UR FUCKING NOTES?!
imagine going through this every week.
Do notes, print, bind. Do notes, print, bind. Do notes, print, bind. In between process, need to find suitable diagrams, workbook questions. prepare their hwk. FYI, their notes has to be very colourful. so they will read, thatz wad ttc said lar. so u have to EDIT the notes also..make it very colourful and lively. like kindergarden hor?
During lesson, i tried to make the lesson interesting. As a matter of fact, bio is a very dry subject. Yeah..they laughed..enjoyed themselves.
I even get compliments, saying that im a good teacher. That really cheers me up.
But there are some students who SLEEP in my class. ok those ppl fuck off..dun wanna see ur fugly face...HOWEVER...THESE SLEEPING BEAUTIES WANT EXTRA CLASSES!!!
DO THE STUDENTS APPRECIATE IT? NO...THEY DONT FUCKING STUDY. THEY KEEP WANTING MORE LESSONS, MORE EXTRA CLASSES...
LIKE HELLO? izzit my problem that u miss ur tuition or sleep during class??? cannot read urself ah. FYI, a student called me...yes my cellphone dunno how he got my number. to meet him in mcd (old town that one)...to teach him wad he has missed because he attended his school activities. wow...if every student is like this...then i no time to shit already? HELLO WAD AM I??? FREELANCE TUITION TEACHER AH... I NO NEED TO STUDY IZZIT?!?!?! I'VE SAID NO MILLION TIMES.
Mind u im teaching bio ok..not physics or chem or add maths or accounts...so confirm less ppl come tuition lar coz u can read bio at home, no need guidance also can (like me when i was in high school).
So confirmed, i wont earn much. kind of regret choosing to teach bio also. Should stand strong saying that i wanna teach other subjects.
I am a perfectionist. i dont deny that. Ppl in chsb, especially f508 know this very well. I cannot runaway from stressing up myself lar...hmmm have to change have to change. My notes, to be honest, is very complete for everything. (EVEN BRUCE THE ALMIGHTY SAID SO). So thatz a lot of effort. I realised im so stupid for doing a good job.
Ok...so u're wondering why i wanna teach ttc. well, i'd say i dunno why too. I wanted to prove to my parents that im not some rich stuck up kid that eats their money. Well, i failed to prove. I AM A RICH ASS KID WHO DOESNT KNOW HOW TO EARN MONEY BUT ASK FOR MONEY ALL THE TIME.
my parents have been telling me to quit...to quit...to quit...but i stayed on FOR NO REASON. OK for my senior's sake maybe, i do pity him..hez a medical student, if i leave that means he has to take over my job and his job as well. sure no time to study. but this time it is unbearable anymore.
I know..if i want to leave, i have to stand firm. But i just couldn't do it. GOSH FUCK WHY IS MY HEART SO SOFT?! haih...
But today, told my senior that i want to stop teaching. TO MY HORROR...HE CALLED ME...OMG...i told him i wasnt feeling well and said bye bye.
WHY SO DESPERATE...NOBODY TO TEACH MEH??? im not that good also.
This post is so long and unorganised. There is just too much, i cannot finish writing. Im very sleepy now...this cough syrup is really strong...gosh...
Imagine ur future with ttc. Yeah...i see no rainbow, but a dark dark cave.
Monday, June 1, 2009
Sunday, May 31, 2009
shu ying is sick......again
Down with slight fever, cough and cold. The usual illness lar. sobs.
I couldnt really sleep well. because i was coughing non stop, the whole night. My chest is uber painful after all those coughing. :( i dun wanna take that medicine that makes me sleep. Because im very busyyyyyyyy.
Offer me tender, loving, care lar...i will sure recover quickly!!! Somebody...ANYBODY!!!!
*cough cough cough*
wooohoo...all the phelgm...omg IS THIS SWINE FLU???
I couldnt really sleep well. because i was coughing non stop, the whole night. My chest is uber painful after all those coughing. :( i dun wanna take that medicine that makes me sleep. Because im very busyyyyyyyy.
Offer me tender, loving, care lar...i will sure recover quickly!!! Somebody...ANYBODY!!!!
*cough cough cough*
wooohoo...all the phelgm...omg IS THIS SWINE FLU???
Saturday, May 30, 2009
shu ying is emo
Have been sleeping a lot lately. I sleep although im not tired. Obviously, my body needs rest. I have been deprived of sleep for dunno how many nights.
Not only my body is tired, im tired of life as well. This is so negative but i really feel this way. Nothing to look foward to, nothing to look backward also. What izzit in life that im lacking of?
Can somebody tell me the answer?
I have no mood to do anything at all. But in fact i have lots of things lining up, waiting for me to complete them. I am not motivated. At all.
Im starting to think. Do friends really exist? Do they really care about u?
I feel very lonely. I feel insecure as well. Every night.
Somebody teach me how to be a human.
I miss those times.
.
.
.
.
.
.
i dunno what im talking about anyway. Ignore me.
Not only my body is tired, im tired of life as well. This is so negative but i really feel this way. Nothing to look foward to, nothing to look backward also. What izzit in life that im lacking of?
Can somebody tell me the answer?
I have no mood to do anything at all. But in fact i have lots of things lining up, waiting for me to complete them. I am not motivated. At all.
Im starting to think. Do friends really exist? Do they really care about u?
I feel very lonely. I feel insecure as well. Every night.
Somebody teach me how to be a human.
I miss those times.
.
.
.
.
.
.
i dunno what im talking about anyway. Ignore me.
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